doi:10.7916/c8rr-x761Oral history interview with Elizabeth Partoyan, 2020Partoyan, Elizabethoral historiesmixed materialGun control--United StatesSuicideAlcoholismObsessive-compulsive disorderPartoyan, ElizabethElizabeth Partoyan begins this life history interview with memories of her youth and family dynamics through her twenties. She analyzes the impacts of her mother's alcoholism on her personality and subsequent relationships. She describes her diagnosis and experiences with obsessive-compulsive disorder. She also considers in detail her relationships with her father, stepmother, and brother. The significant focus of the interview Partoyan's ex-husband Doug Benge, who committed suicide with a handgun in 2008. She gives a detailed description of their early relationship: Benge's life trajectory to that point; how they met; her respect for his intelligence and unique worldviews; his family; evident class and education differences; their decision to marry; and their ceremony at Lake Tahoe. She discusses the increasing challenges as a couple, therapy, Benge's increasing alcohol consumption between 2004-2006, impacts of his alcoholism on his work, and his financial issues. She describes the legal mechanics of their amicable divorce in 2007. Partoyan contrasts her family's opposition to guns and his family's traditions of having them for hunting and self-defense. She describes the friction between these worldviews. Benge kept a pistol in the nightstand for protection. She discusses their lives after the divorce and a troubled relationship of Benge's. She details the events of his suicide, receiving the news, and the effects of the suicide on people around Benge. She concludes with reflections on Benge's personality